Halo

Remember those walls I built? Well, baby they’re tumbling down. And they didn’t even put up a fight, they didn’t even make up a sound. I found a way to let you in but I never really had a doubt. Standing in the light of your halo, I got my angel now. It’s like I’ve been awakened. Every rule I had you breakin’. It’s the risk that I’m takin’.I ain’t never gonna shut you out. Everywhere I’m looking now I’m surrounded by your embrace. Baby I can see your halo, you know you’re my saving grace. You’re everything I need and more, it’s written all over your face. Baby I can feel your halo Pray it won’t fade away. I can feel your halo hit me like a ray of sun, burning through my darkest night. You’re the only one that I want. Think I’m addicted to your light. I swore I’d never fall again, but this don’t even feel like falling. Gravity can’t forget to pull me back to the ground again.

That song could not be more true. Oddly enough sung by Beyonce whom I am not a huge fan of.

In other news, I cleaned the house HURRAH. I have yet to eat, not sure what I should consume for lunch. I will go ponder this else where.

This is not an umbrella.

Ok so it has been a good long time sine I updated this.

Sooo here she goes.

I retruned home from the Okanagan. Worked stayed shitty, other than today… today was pretty funny. The way things are going lately with work and us hardly making budget I think someone will get fired soon. If its me I don’t think I will be all that heart broken. I want something better, better pay, doesn’t make me smell like crap and breaks my nails I tried sooooo hard to grow. Whine whine whine.
I got a tattoo last Thursday. The thing has a personal vendetta against me. It itches in the most inconvenient times ever. There are pictures on flickr. I will also be getting one next Saturday. Its going to be a grumpy little cartoon fish. I will name him Fred.
Uhh… what else is new? Hm.. I donno.My mind seems to settle on the same topic. Its weird. My mind almost NEVER keeps going back to one thing this often. I am not in the mood to say what it is. Which makes this kind of a stupid thing to put in here but what ever.
I really have nothing to say.
Wow…
I suck at this.

From the fog

So its been a while since I updated. I suppose I should do so since tons has happened. I tired to fly to Kelowna since Wednesday January the 14th. My flights kept getting canceled while I was floating above Kelowna. I got here Saturday night, and went to Dawn’s and we had our get together. Which both Dawn and I were utterly exhausted for. It ended fairly early, I went home at around 12 and chilled in bed reading and such. Sunday Dawn and I went to the mall, I got a shirt and a belt. Josh who happens to work at Spenser’s picked me up while I was on the phone with my mom (whom told me to stop having so much fun while I was talking to her. XD) And I saw Jamie. He works in Randy River. Good times. I went to the school today. It seemed empty being with Jason and Tara. I don’t know what it was but it felt like standing in a room all alone. There was no substance to being with them. After I left them and there was like Dawn, Cam, Danny, Tyler and Becky things felt normal again. Becky and I went to see Hayley at her work and hung out with her during her lunch. Then I went to get Dawn, Cam, Gavin and Nick to go to Dawn’s house to make cake (there are pictures of that on my flickr). Danny showed up later. It has been a hectic couple of days with out sleeping properly. I hate that Shane’s not in the bed with me. Its nice knowing your not alone laying awake at night, you can always turn over and see someone there. Here its like I turn over and see a mound of breathing fur at my feet. I miss Shane. It’s only been 3 days. I am so lame.  I go to my mom’s tomorrow. She wants a family photo so we are doing that and then we will be driving down to her place. I will be getting my hair trimmed while I am there as well. I need it badly.

That’s all I have at the moment I suppose.

Beat the back

Oh man when I go back to my Mom and Guy’s place, I am going to get guy give me a good back rub. Honestly… my back is just wrecked. The muscles haven’t been relaxed in forever, I can always feel how tight they are. They just need a good solid rub. Its gonna hurt so good when said rubbing of my back happens. Hoooman.
So I apparently can’t have Reece Puffs. They created a world of pain on my tum-tum today. I really thought I could eat them. It only said ” may contain traces of wheat” so I thought it would be ok. Oh God I was wrong. I didn’t appreciate being hunched in a ball in the bathroom at work. Not one bit.
Tomorrow is going to be super slow. Last year they only had 5 cars… the year before 1. So chances are I will be sent home pretty early. Not that I’m complaining. I could have a painting day or tattoo design day. I get payed tomorrow too. So I can put more money towards that whole tattoo thing. I need to finalize the design so I can make an appointment and get a price quote and stuff. Maybe on a day off or a day when I get off at 4. (Yeah we stopped doing to 10 hour shift thing because we can’t afford to pay everyone for that and we haven’t enough staff)
That’s all I have at the moment.

Living on my own and lubricating nipples.

Well, Shane and I have moved out. Been 3 weeks here now, shits going well, we have out internet (yaaay!) Works sucks, but yeah, thats not new. The people upstairs have a 2 year old, and it reminds me of when I lived with my mom.

Uh, I dyed my hair. Its blackish brown.

I haven’t much to say. Bowser is getting better with people.

Thats really it to be honest.

Time for a small update.

Ugh, I have done non-stop work. Its annoying, even when I am sleeping I am fucking working. It doesn’t help that I don’t even sleep well so when I dream about work with the little sleep I do get, I wake up feeling frusterated. Its fucked with my mood, which I also think fucks with my sleep. And I feel like a dick ’cause I am hardly pleased when I see Shane, even if I want to be all happy my irritation at work and lack of sleep just comes out. Hard to control the emotions when your not sleeping. Seriously, I have nearly burst into tears for no reason like a million times. Good lord its stupid.

Also, I got my nipple pierced. Hurt like a bitch but what ever, it will get better and yeah.  I think I have a wart. It hurts, and its gross I want it gone. Maybe I will try to sufficate it. Duck tape my finger or some shit. Also Shane git his tattoo, its pre’ sweet.

Shane and I got a place. Satifying. I no longer need to look on the internet for places, or in the paper. God it as annoying, you email or call and NO ONE RESPONDS D< But thats behind us now. Wew! I had better get the 1st off so I can move in to my place. Oh and some guy got hired and he lived in Castelgar, Grandforks and Penticton. Hoooman, I will have some good laughs with that kid. ” Ha you lived in small gay towns!”  and then he will be all ” Hey you lived in Keremeos!” my only response… ” ” :c” Haaa, yeah tomorrow will be silly. I hope it goes fast, I don’t want to work, I want a real day off. I want to not work for a month. Rest, draw… DRAW!

I am done complaining now. Yeah. Bed.

Cameras computers and lubricant

So I had my first day today. I spent 2 hours reading and one hour doing a test that I failed twice due to wording and the answers not being there (it was open book). Like really, I’m no good at tests. Even if they are open book. I kept getting 83% when I needed 90%. So I have to keep doing it tomorrow till I get 90% or more. -_-;
I will also be working the day I was supposed to hang out with Craig. Unless he can hang out on Sunday I won’t get to see him. Merf. I was looking forward to that. I get Thursday off. And tomorrow I work 8-4. I start at 8-Close(when ever that is) all week.

I have something to work towards… A $1449 camera. Its a really pretty Nikon SLR camera( something like this) . Oh god the quality was so nice. And the lens OH MAN. It was like an orgasum for my hands and eyes. God I want it so bad. SO BAD. Fuck I wish I had money. I want to win the lottery. THE LOTTERY! Yeah. That was extreme wasn’t it? Also I want a mac, thats another thing to save up for. Camera first thought I think. Unless I come into money. Or I work all the time like.. ALL THE TIME. 10 hours a day 6 days a week. MONEY. (Pretty sure they wouldn’t allow that)

I have decided to just get my nipple done. I can wait to get a tattoo, its just too much work to try and think of a tattoo designe.

[Edit 10:09PM]

My muffin exploded! I was microwaving it as normal, I’m making my tea like normal and then BLAM!!!!! the damned thing was on the microwave walls. No one but myself was there to witness this.

When I wake up in my make up…

Have you ever fallen asleep with make up on? That gross sticky feeling in your eye that seems to stay there all day even if you wash your face… I had that today. In fact when I looked in the mirror I swear I saw make up (like eyeliner and mascara). It was a horrible feeling and I think it made me a but grumpy/tired today. And for some reason this kept coming into my head and realized it is the exact feeling I have had….

” When I wake up in my makeup. Have you ever felt so used up as this? It’s all so sugarless. Hooker/waitress/model/actress, oh, just go nameless.”

I cleaned today, I decided it would make me feel better to clean the shit out of the bathroom and Bowser’s cage. Pretty sure I will be told ” You didn’t have to.” I don’t care… it was there and it was dirty. So I will clean it.  I like cleaning to be honest it makes me feel better like I am doing something useful and I get to clear my head while doing it. Also I feel like I’m working out just a little. And to be perfectly honest I need to work out. I haven’t done so in a while and I no longer have an active job. I also want to eat healthier. Like I think my body needs a bit of a cleansing. Really my stomache for the first while when I moved here was so fucked up I felt like crap most of the time. Its finally becoming normal again. Finally.

I feel lonely today. Like I wanted to go do something but I had no one to go do something with because Shane had to work. But you know.. I really do need to make friends. I gotta figure out how one makes friends with out school. Then I can do shit when Shane is doing stuff. It would be sweet if more people at work spoke English fluently. I mean Daikie is a cool guy but hes quiet, and Chuck is the only one whom actually talks really. Thats pretty much it for work because I don’t work with Leanne ever. Merf….

Bitch, bitch, bitch, whine, whine, whine….

A week in a year.

Well it has been a week in Calgary. Things are going well thus far. I have a job. I start on Monday, 11-7. They all seem pretty nice, cheeful. I hope it works out. And hey it would be sweet if I made some friends at this job. ‘Cause you know… friends are always nice. We have a place we are going to view on Monday. Too bad I am working during said view time so Shane has to go on his own. Which is lame. But gotta do what yah gotta do. The place is $750 a month, and its a basement suit. Should be good. The pictures make it look ok. So we will see how it goes.

I don’t have much to say really. I got my new cell number finally. I had my new laundry hamper explode in my face. Yes.. I said explode. It was a fold up thing that was held together by elastic and when I took the elastic off HOLY LORD DICK it flailed around into my face. Shane and I laughed for a good 5-10 minutes. I laughed to the point of tears. Good times.

This week feels longer than a week.

This is all I got. I am a lame person.

Yeah.

Walking at sunset

So I got my out fit today from the mall. I went there grabbed it and then when I got to the counter to pay they said I could go pick something else for free. So I wandered around the store for like… 15 or more minutes trying to find something I liked. I ended up getting a hoodie. Its plan and black but it has a heart on the hood. And it wasn’t ridiculously small like most girl hoodies. Its a normal size.  I hate it when they are small. WTF?! People need warmth in the tummy/ back area too! So when I got to the counter the girl was said I didn’t have to wait. But I didn’t want to be rude. And she replied with ” Psh be rude I do it all the time. In a nice way but rude.” So I told her if I was going to be rude there is no being nice I have to be a bitch about it. I mean really whats the point of being rude if your going to be nice? I can’t wait to wear my out fit. My tackyness is screaming to come out.

When I was at work my work pants ripped in the knee. I was so sad. Could they have not waited till the 24th? I Mean I will still wear them. But still, why? I am going to try and sew them back together. Also I think I did the DUMBEST thing I will ever do. Ever. Before we enter the rooms we have to knock on them and announce it is house keeping. So I went to do so, knocked and said ” Hello! House keeping!” and then stopped.. and ” Oh son of a bitch!! I JUST KNOCKED ON MY LEG!!” Yes. I knocked on my leg. I’m fucking retarded. Theres a foot ball team staying at the hotel. I met the bus driver. Hes awesome and nice. I also met a few of the players. HA! Funniest thing ever. They hit on Chelsie and I. And asked us out. It was the funniest thing ever. This pretty much never happens. They tried to get us to go drinking/ clubbing with them tonight. Chelsie is 17, and neither of us drink. We pointed this out to them… and they said “Well… room 117, come on in if you want to start drinking.” They left their room… instantly Chelsie and I started laughing. She came into the toilet room (which is where I was ’cause I was cleaning the tub) and sits down and starts rolling around laughing on my back. It was good lulz.

I went for a walk due to mass boredom. I got some sweet pictures. I will throw them onto flickr at some point I’m sure. I wish I had a tri-pod. The moon was so pretty, and as soon as I turned to see it “Sort of a Protest Song” by Matthew Good came on. So I has a pretty moon on one side and a sun set that looked so surreal on the other. It was pretty awesome. And when I was walking home, “Running for Home” came on. BEST 10 MINUTES OF PRETTYNESS EVER!

The night before last I had a dream that was nasty as sin. I opened a door to a feezer and oh hey a dead person that had been burnt to death, I could smell the body. It was fucking gross. Ugh.

And now I am off to bed to read. I must start a new book. I finished mine last night. Whoot.