Oh bother

I lot my phone over the weekend of transit. Sadly it never showed up. So now I must grab a new one. I liked my iphone, it was easy for me to use. I will have to learn me an android now.

I get to quit my job at the lab. Finally after, what, a year? A year of me saying I will quit? I got a new job at a pet store. It pays a lot less but it will work out much better with school. And that is really what I need right now.

That’s all really. I will now leave you with this, an accurate representation of how I feel most of the time:

That Feeling in Your Bones

You know that feeling you get, that everyone don’t like you and they are just putting up with you because they have to?

I have been getting that feeling a lot lately.

I am back in school now. Its been busy. Lots of drawing. My grades are holding up pretty good. So that’s nice. And since there isn’t much else to say I will post some art.

All things as of late or not really

Well its been a while since I have been around this here parts. I blame video games. I have taken up WoW and it eats up a lot of time. I am sure it also makes it so I have nothing to talk about. In any case, that’s what I have been up to for the most part. Other than work.

I have been pushed back to graveyards. (Well that’s not new as I have been back on them since… March? Right? Maybe…. In any case it made me an angry bitter grouch for a long time. I had to push the feelings aside so that I could do things I liked such as WoW and art. This year I decided I would track my weight to see if I was gaining or staying roughly about the same. Because lets face it, when you work that particular shift you end up eating more food and usually that food is not even all that good for you. I started this venture at 125lbs on my room mates scale. Lighter than I had thought since the last time I checked I was 130lbs, but that was over a year ago. But I digress. I checked myself again roughly 3 weeks ago, and I went down to 120lbs. I was not at all worried about 5lbs. I mean my diet had changed and I was trying to keep my foods away from being heavy ( like rice and meats) after my initial first meal of the day. I weighed myself again not too long ago a week or so and I was down to 116lbs. So I checked again a few days ago 114lbs. It has become a tad worrisome. And coupled with the weight loss I have not really been sleeping for more than 5 or so hours a day. I would say its time to hit up the doctor and get this checked out.

I applied for a second job. I know that sounds stupid since I just said I wasn’t really sleeping but lets face it… Vancouver isn’t the height of affordability even if you make over $14 an hour. You needs to sit at $20/hr to not freak out about your money situations especially if you have a car… sitting in your garage… not being used… :c
I did not get the job. Even though I had a great interview I suppose they found someone better… probably someone not working graveyards. Life goes on.

I applied for school. VCAD to be exact. I have my interview with the school Monday evening and after that I will know my fate and how god awfully broke I will be. I will be, hopefully, taking the graphics design course. I am pretty excited at the potential of not having to do a job I know is not what I want to be doing for people I know don’t care about how terribly I am dealing with their schedule.

I lost two of my pets. Both the bunnies. I am pretty upset about it, but I know they were unhappy and getting pretty uncomfortable with their teeth. So… I guess it’s better this way. I don’t know I am trying to see the upside of it. Other than their tragic demise the two remaining animals are doing just fine. My cat, whom has recently been freed of his bell, has been taking full advantage of being able to sneak up on us. The hedgehog has been.. well the same as ever. Not very social.

I finally got a desktop. I couldn’t be happier with it. It’s all custom-built by my friend Sergio. I told him what I wanted and he found all the parts, we went in I payed for it and he thew it all together for me. He is pretty awesome and the fact that he can deal with the complexity of a computer is pretty darn boss.

And now I leave you with the faces of two mourned.

Dancing Safaries

This is amazing on so many levels. I wish life were like this.

 

 

Obviously this isn’t mine.

Life, the Universe and All Things Not Remotely Related

Well things have been happening, I have just been far too lazy to write a post. Lets see. Christmas happened. It was good times with family. I unfortunately was sleeping through most of it. I didn’t sleep from then to mid January at all. That was no good. Graveyards were shut down due to the slow season. Thankfully.  So now I am on afternoons. Some douche has broken into my work 2 times now. The first time my wallet was stolen. Its been a few weeks and I have yet to get a few things. Bad Shay. Gus is doing ok. He had some blood in his poop, we took him into the vet and we have meds for him. He, oddly, likes his pills. And actually takes them as treats. Good news for me. I didn’t like forcing his food down his throat (like I did with the deworming pill because I didn’t think to try the other way) I suppose I should mention that I did is AS THE VET TOLD ME TO! I am not mean to my fluff ball. Even if he wakes me up early in the morning for food and attention… and treats. What a dink. WHAAATT ELSE?! Uhm, because Shane doesn’t update his own damn blog, I will say it here. He is getting bumped up to PET CARE! That’s exciting, more hours for him and more fuzzy animals and horrible pet owners. Dawn will be here in a week and a half. I am very excited as we have a late night Denny’s date planned. I have never done that anditmakesmesoexcitedIstopusingspaces. UUUHHMMM. I did well on my performance review at work (and may have talked about zombieism and how its a great way to learn). THAT’S GOOD!  Means I don’t suck and I won’t get fired! And I may get to learn ICP which is outrageously complicated, but if I can master that HOT DIDDY I can do anything. Be like wonder woman. Only my cloths aren’t nearly as tight… or red.. or blue. So really I am nothing like her at all. Moving on. I met the Vice President of the entire company. Not just North America. No… no of all the company. I also met the head of the Geology department at UBC. I feel I made an ass out of myself. But the evening manager said it was good, charming and funny. All I was saying was that UBC Vancouver is a very scary campus to go to after going to UBC Okanagan. That’s right Dawn, Sarika, you kids will be scared and confused. THEY HAVE STREET NAMES! I digress. I also went on to say I couldn’t even navigate my way around my own jobs main building. Which is true. I never go any where but the lunch room. Some how all that made me charming. I have been learning some pretty awesome photo shopping and photo taking skills from my friend Cody. That’s super great. And because I have run out of things to say I am going to throw down some pictures I took and played with.

Note: You may NOT use these images with out permission. And if you do use them and claim them as your own. I will find you and punch you in the crotch so hard you will pooh funny because I made your intestines go all… funny.

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Well now then. These last months have been ridiculous. Got engaged, got a cat and the hate for my job has been at an all time high.

The cat has been doing well. But he’s been puking a lot. Might have to take him to a vet to make sure everything is ok. He has been acting ok, all spunky as usual. But I donno, he REALLY likes puking and it makes me nervous. Other than that he has been sunshine. Being a hyper freak playful and cuddly when he burns off his energy.

Work has been, well, work. There’s not much to say other than it stresses me out so bad I feel like I am going to puke and my face has been nothing but pimple city. Once I sell my car I will probly quit this job. Since this graveyard crap is really doing me in.

I am at my mom’s for Christmas. Did my hair so its got some rainbow back in it (my boss can blow me since I am on graveyards I DO WHAT I WANT!) We had to cart the bunnies and cat with us. Feels like regret. Their cat and my cat HAAATE each other. Its like… UFC (Ultimate Fighting Cats)  and I am the referee.

 

Not much else to say. What a bust.

Porn: A Stranger Out Look

Since I have nothing really that insightful to write about and I have the urge to write, I have decided to talk of porn. Not praising, but just rambling on about it, if you will. So this is where, if you do not wish to read about the weirdness and what I find hilarious in the seedy waste lands of the internet, you should turn back now.

First I would like to touch down on this babysitter…thing. Has any one ever thought about  how weird this is in reality?  A man comes home and just starts fucking the girl watching the children, usually because he has caught her flicking the bean in the bedroom (which is clearly a hotel room). They proceed with what is usually pretty unattractive to watch sex., and you know, I can live with that.  It’s at the very end of it all that really gets me. The girl looks at him, come all over her face, “ You’re not going to tell my dad are you?” “ No, no this is our secret.” Really? Really? OF COURSE he wouldn’t tell your father you stupid girl! He just fucked your brains out and you’re supposed to be depicting a 16 year old or some such nonsense. Why would he tell the man whom would run to the police!? Not only this, but, while they are making all this noise where are the children? I dare say if I was an 8 year old and I hear some woman screaming in my house I would more than likely walk right into that room and immediately need as much therapy money could buy.

Now, we look at the wake up the sleeping girl thing. The man sneaks ever so quietly into the room of his sleeping girl friend and does things to her and then she wakes up and BOOM SEX! I am sure this isn’t true for all women, but I think the majority HATE being woken up for sex. The only things I am ok being woken up for are food and beverage. Anything other than that will get a man murdered.  Enough said.

Here is the one I REALLY wanted to talk about: hentai.
Lets face it, half the time (read: all the time) hentai makes no sense. It is, after all, cartoon porn. Take a step back and think about it:  you are getting off on something that is so fictional its not even real people. It’s like masturbating to Dora the Explorer. Not only is it a cartoon, but, in a lot of them they have tentacles for a penis and there are roughly 30 of them for one woman. I am fairly certain there are not even enough holes on a person for 30 tentacle penii to penetrate.  Then you have the videos where it seems normal enough until that man ejaculates. It just-keeps-on-coming. He is pumping out enough semen for 10 men. 10 MEN! I am flabbergasted by this EVERY TIME! Where is it all coming from? How did this one man hold in all that semen without exploding?!  I DON’T UNDERSTAND ONE BIT! You know what? That’s not even the worst of it. They can have a woman all on her own and there is still the semen of 10 men all over her and there won’t be a man in sight. I just… what is this? I don’t even.

I could keep going on all the weirdness that is porn. And mayhaps one day I will do so. But for now I am leaving it at this.

TL;DR? 16 year old sex and traumatized 8 year old’s. Murder from a bad idea. SEMEN EVERY WHERE SO VERY MUCH SEMEN!?

Stupid life

I won’t lie I am pretty nervous about my financial situation these days. After rent there won’t be enough for any other bills. It scares me. I don’t spend tons of money, its only on things I need and yet, I still have nothing. I haven’t missed any days of work… this is getting ridiculous. Like a god damn sinking ship. We need to move, to get a cheaper place, I need to sell my car and save that $560 a month it costs (that’s before gas >.<) and I need a better paying job. Good luck right? Who will buy my car with this shit economy? Who the fuck will rent to us? We can’t even get people to call us back. And where the hell am I going to find a better paying job? There is nothing for someone with no schooling or experience. And due to my serious lack of financial security I can kiss the idea of school good bye.

And work, WORK! I am getting so tried of this stupid job! I don’t feel good going there, I have no spunk to even do well. I have no confidence in my work, like I kind of had some before but now… it feels like I am doing something wrong, always. I don’t even know science, like… it feels stupid to be there when they talk about things going wrong, or explaining something, I don’t get what they are talking about since its in science lingo. VGEHOWRE I want out I would rather be in retail or something. At least I would know what I am doing.

Guh, we may need to start looking at living situations soon because honestly. I can’t keep up with this shit any more. I donno. Its bed time.

Stars

The stars fell from the sky that night. Drifting down to us and landing on our skin only to melt away to nothing.

Like they were never really there.

There’s Something About Heaven That’s so Earthly

“You will never believe this…” I say to you. A small smile touching the corner of my lips.
You stay silent showing no sign that you are paying attention, or that I am even there for that matter. And yet I know you are hanging on my every word. I know you are tired. We had a long night and the sun had only been up for an hour or two.
It’s a cold fall morning; the leaves are all yellow and red and littering the ground. We are in our place. The place we go on our rare days off together. Our place is on a hill overlooking the town. Its quiet here, one of the reasons we love this place. The world seems much quieter than normal. Like it knows what happened, like it knows about the long night and is giving us a break.
You take a deep breath shoving your face into your hands, leaving your self like this for a while. I sit down next to you and watch you. My smile fades when you lift your head and I see tears. “You don’t need to be sad my love. I am here with you always. Even if you don’t feel like I am.” These words have no effect on you. I touch your arm to comfort you. A small smile shines through the tears on your cheeks.
“I know your here. I am sure you are telling me to stop crying and that I am being silly. But I will… and do miss you.” the smile weakened and more tears came to your eyes.
I had died last night, you could not see me, you could not feel me and you could not hear me.

You know I am near you. You can just tell.

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I decided to try writing something and this popped into my head at work. I hope you guys like it.