Secrets

I am taking a leaf out of TracyLee’s blogging. I am going to do a “secret” post.

I found one that sadly couldn’t be more true.
For a long time when I first moved out here to Calgary I was very lonely. Despite the fact that I had Shane to hang out with all the time it was different from hanging out with my friends such as Dawn, Cam, Hayley and Brin. I wanted other people to hang out with and sit and be stupid with watching TV, going for random trips to DQ and the like. So after a while of working at Mr Lube I would invite someone I didn’t totally like to hang out. It was lame and probably makes me sound like a terrible person but really I had no friends to speak of and I was pretty desperate so to speak. I had a need to have more than one person to be around. Of course this one person irritated me more often than not. We never really hung out again. Thankfully after a while I met other people who were much MUCH more interesting and not annoying to the point that  I want to tape their mouth shut. In fact I have found some friends that I really rather enjoy hanging out with and wish it were more often (conflicting scheduals don’t help). Even so even just hanging out with Shane feels enough these days. And being alone doesn’t feel nearly as lonely as it once was which feels very nice. But one day I would very much like to have it where I live near enough to my friends again.

I hate it when I make plans with someone I don’t even like,
just to pass the time.