Beat the back

Oh man when I go back to my Mom and Guy’s place, I am going to get guy give me a good back rub. Honestly… my back is just wrecked. The muscles haven’t been relaxed in forever, I can always feel how tight they are. They just need a good solid rub. Its gonna hurt so good when said rubbing of my back happens. Hoooman.
So I apparently can’t have Reece Puffs. They created a world of pain on my tum-tum today. I really thought I could eat them. It only said ” may contain traces of wheat” so I thought it would be ok. Oh God I was wrong. I didn’t appreciate being hunched in a ball in the bathroom at work. Not one bit.
Tomorrow is going to be super slow. Last year they only had 5 cars… the year before 1. So chances are I will be sent home pretty early. Not that I’m complaining. I could have a painting day or tattoo design day. I get payed tomorrow too. So I can put more money towards that whole tattoo thing. I need to finalize the design so I can make an appointment and get a price quote and stuff. Maybe on a day off or a day when I get off at 4. (Yeah we stopped doing to 10 hour shift thing because we can’t afford to pay everyone for that and we haven’t enough staff)
That’s all I have at the moment.

Spider Glass and Snow flakes

Well its been an interesting few days.. I went to Zoolights, made a bacon weave.
Zoolights was pretty, I took tons of pictures (with Shane’s help since my hands went numb). I have them posted on flickr. It snowed the entire time we were there, but it was still enjoyable.
I find snow oddly romantic ( yes, I actually think of romantic things I am open to the idea now and no I am not sick) I think its the fact that its so quiet, and it seems to glow even in the dark. Its also shiny. Too bad it makes it so people can’t drive.
The bacon weave wrap thing was good… it made my tummy a but upset thought. I blame all the grease. I did recover in the end after I took a well needed nap.
I got up before my alarm this morning. I was so comfy it was hard to drag myself out of bed that 10 minutes before the alarm went off ( I didn’t want to wake Shane up) I managed to get to work early to find Oscar, Eric and Himmat already there and the staff smoking door smashed in. We watched the security cameras and the only person that came near the door was some plow truck. But we think it might have been a plan that broke the window. Although the guy walked up to the door he didn’t really do much. Looked to see if the door was smashed was on his cell phone and then left. But the crack (from what we could see from the shit ass security footage) appeared long before that guy came. So unless someone shot at the window, it probably cracked from the cold and a plane passing over. We did managed to get the glass replaced by 2:30ish pm. It was done by the time I left at 3:00 pm. So that was good.
It won’t stop snowing. Its weird. I have never seen it snow this much in my life. Normally it snows and then stops for a few days and then starts up again…it never snows for a long time stops for a few hours, then picks back up again.
I would very much like to get my nails done. I think it would be fun. I also wouldn’t have to worry about my nails peeling or bending. Soon I will be able to afford my tattoo. Probly after Christmas. Maybe I will make an appointment for the 27th or something. Only 2 more days till Christmas. I won’t get much hours this week.
That’s really all I have to ramble about for now.

Dead people should be dead.

I had a ridiculous few days. I got sent home from work on thursday, on my birthday I lost my keys at Canadian Tire (luckly I had my spare) Then I locked my spare in my car that wasn’t starting due to the cold( it was a good day for me). AMA was busy all day but its ok… they got here by 10pm. Thankfully it was warm enough today for my car to start. I also found the block heater for my car. I got an extension cord only to find it was the wrong one. So I went back to Canadian Tire (after the friend of the people up stairs left so he wasn’t blocking my car into the fucking drive way) and got the right kind of cord. Unfortunately it is only 5 meters long so I have to plug it into the upstairs peoples garage.

I don’t want to work tomorrow. I am actually so tired of doing this job that I find it hard to come into work. Its so tireing to deal with cars when you dont truely care about them. Or unsterdtand half the shit I’m selling. It doesn’t feel right. Merf. What ever, when I get back from going to the Okanagan (hopefully Shane can come) I am going to look for a new job.

Close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by.

Well I found out some oh so lovely stuff today. My brother has been phoning me frantically all day, and my mom phoned. So I called my brother back, I got no answer, so I call my mom wish her a happy birthday. We talked and she gave me a heads up about why Kaylan was calling me. So I finally get ahold of my brother and I find out that apparently my grampa had gotten so mad at my step dad that he kicked him out of his house and said he wasn’t welcome in their home any more. So after the long conversation with my brother about how my family (my moms side might I add) has shunned my mom I call her and get it from them I wanted to make sure that my brother didn’t over do it. He didn’t, infact, I don’t think he knew about the part that amazed me the most…. My grampa had punched my step dad in the face and gave him a fat lip. It bothered me before but that pushed me over the edge to hear my family has gotten to such a shit ass point as that. Why? Because my dad complained about loaning my older brother money. I never listen to my dads advice because he can be a douch at times. This has pretty much solidified that I wont ask for anything if this is what happens when I need a loan from him. Though I have noticed me family has always been stupid like this. Always taking my dads side never my moms. Its annoying. They alwats seem to shun her, and I always felt shunned. Its silly. I think it will feel weird when I see everyone again and them thinking I don’t know what happened. Buh. I had to talk my brother into being calm on the phone so he didn’t go reign hell to the family. Lovely thing to come home with. It took an hour to get to eat my damned dinner.

In other news. I have my next two weeks of scheduals its lovely. The Christmas week is great sleep in till 9 Monday, tuesday I am off at 4, and Christmas ever we close at 4. Mike (my boss) said he would send a few people home early that day -fingers crossed-.

I feel silly Linkin Park lyrics descide how I feel perfectly.

Even though you’re close to me
You’re still so distant, and I can’t bring you back

Pardon Me

So yesterday I cleaned out both cages and even introduced Bowser to Felix and Oscar. It was cute and a little funny to watch.

I dislike work a lot some times. I really do. Not always because the customers, not always because the early mornings and the long days. Its because I get yelled at for the stupidest shit ever. Weither it be that I have nothing to do so I get yelled at for standing there waiting to be able to do shit on my bay, or because the back room isn’t up to someone elses standards whom isn’t even a manager or supervisor. Its fucking frusterating. It makes an ok day turn to shit. Its not like I’m trying to do shit wrong. Really, I am trying to do things right. I completly understand why Cassi gets so fucking stressed out all the time. Because no matter what we do its never good enough. And some times it feels like its only the girls that suffer from that. I mean there is only 2 girls working at the shop. I understand we are going to get teased a little more then everyone else, but come on now… theres a fucking limit. There really is. I can’t say I want to be at a job where I get roughly dragged into a room and yelled at about how the room SHOULD look. Wow great you want it clean. Unfortunatly its not going to stay clean for along. Its not like I don’t try and keep your fucking backroom clean. I do try I do, but you know what not every one else does. And there isn’t always fucking room to put the air conditioners away. And if your going to ask someone to do something do it nicely. Not yelling. I actually cried at work, I didn’t let anyone see me. But the fact remains that I was that frusterated. The worse part is that no one noticed I was mad, or at least they failed to ask if I was ok if they did notice. Fuck I even cleaned pretty much the entire store while everyone else (other than Luke who was down stairs and Jeff who was having a smoke) was playing cards. Oh I’m sorry, you were bitching at me for things not being clean and organized?

Merf it probly doesn’t help that I am going through another emotional swing where I get sad over the stupidest shit ever. I hate being a girl, we are so stupid. Always having mood swings and shit.

I need a hug. Someone hug me please?

Fuzzie little creatures all stuffed with love

Shane and I get bunnies tomorrow YEY! And dinner at Terry’s should be a good time. Shane gets Christmas off, which means I don’t have to be alone for Christmas :3. Its going to be so weird not to be at home for the holidays, the only thing I can describe it as pickles dipped in sugar and peanute butter. Yeah… weird. I made 90$ in commition this month alone. YAY! AND EXTRA $100?! I had a social life over the weeked. It was odd actually being out after 3 or so months. It is supposed to snow tonight. I wonder if it will actually stay this time. Or will my global warming make it melt yet again? I should probably start on dinner, I am feeling hungry again. Which is sad since I ate lunch at 5pm and its 7pm. Bah.