Have you ever fallen asleep with make up on? That gross sticky feeling in your eye that seems to stay there all day even if you wash your face… I had that today. In fact when I looked in the mirror I swear I saw make up (like eyeliner and mascara). It was a horrible feeling and I think it made me a but grumpy/tired today. And for some reason this kept coming into my head and realized it is the exact feeling I have had….
” When I wake up in my makeup. Have you ever felt so used up as this? It’s all so sugarless. Hooker/waitress/model/actress, oh, just go nameless.”
I cleaned today, I decided it would make me feel better to clean the shit out of the bathroom and Bowser’s cage. Pretty sure I will be told ” You didn’t have to.” I don’t care… it was there and it was dirty. So I will clean it. I like cleaning to be honest it makes me feel better like I am doing something useful and I get to clear my head while doing it. Also I feel like I’m working out just a little. And to be perfectly honest I need to work out. I haven’t done so in a while and I no longer have an active job. I also want to eat healthier. Like I think my body needs a bit of a cleansing. Really my stomache for the first while when I moved here was so fucked up I felt like crap most of the time. Its finally becoming normal again. Finally.
I feel lonely today. Like I wanted to go do something but I had no one to go do something with because Shane had to work. But you know.. I really do need to make friends. I gotta figure out how one makes friends with out school. Then I can do shit when Shane is doing stuff. It would be sweet if more people at work spoke English fluently. I mean Daikie is a cool guy but hes quiet, and Chuck is the only one whom actually talks really. Thats pretty much it for work because I don’t work with Leanne ever. Merf….
Bitch, bitch, bitch, whine, whine, whine….
