Just so you know…

You still give me butterflies.

When I wake up in my make up…

Have you ever fallen asleep with make up on? That gross sticky feeling in your eye that seems to stay there all day even if you wash your face… I had that today. In fact when I looked in the mirror I swear I saw make up (like eyeliner and mascara). It was a horrible feeling and I think it made me a but grumpy/tired today. And for some reason this kept coming into my head and realized it is the exact feeling I have had….

” When I wake up in my makeup. Have you ever felt so used up as this? It’s all so sugarless. Hooker/waitress/model/actress, oh, just go nameless.”

I cleaned today, I decided it would make me feel better to clean the shit out of the bathroom and Bowser’s cage. Pretty sure I will be told ” You didn’t have to.” I don’t care… it was there and it was dirty. So I will clean it.  I like cleaning to be honest it makes me feel better like I am doing something useful and I get to clear my head while doing it. Also I feel like I’m working out just a little. And to be perfectly honest I need to work out. I haven’t done so in a while and I no longer have an active job. I also want to eat healthier. Like I think my body needs a bit of a cleansing. Really my stomache for the first while when I moved here was so fucked up I felt like crap most of the time. Its finally becoming normal again. Finally.

I feel lonely today. Like I wanted to go do something but I had no one to go do something with because Shane had to work. But you know.. I really do need to make friends. I gotta figure out how one makes friends with out school. Then I can do shit when Shane is doing stuff. It would be sweet if more people at work spoke English fluently. I mean Daikie is a cool guy but hes quiet, and Chuck is the only one whom actually talks really. Thats pretty much it for work because I don’t work with Leanne ever. Merf….

Bitch, bitch, bitch, whine, whine, whine….

Awake

So I did a week of morning shifts at work. I thought it would such more than the evening shifts. No… no i actually prefer the morning shifts. Why?
I like waking up before everyone. I like the quiet of 5-6 am. There is no sound and the moon is still out shining its self upon the world pretending its the sun. And then when the sun decides its time to peak over the horizon… holy fuck. SO pretty. I always wish I had my camera, always but I have yet to remember to bring the damned thing. And next week the earliest I work next week is 9am. So the sunrise will not be there.

I really don’t care for my job at all. It doesn’t pay enough, you don’t get much choice in hours, the organization of the place is shit and I flat out hate serving people coffee. The only up side is tips (this weeks will suck due to evening shifts and will all be going to my next tattoo or piercing) and its easy as shit after a certain point because no one comes in. Thank god starting October we are only open till 6. ‘Cause after 5 no one comes into the place. Though that means even less hours for a shit ass salary. I applied at Mr Lube, they train you on all the shit you have to do. No experiance needed. And I love changing oil. SO FUN.

I found my rice bread at the Co-Op the other day. I was looking in the completely wrong place before. I also found an apple pie. Terry and I just looked at it for about 2 minutes before grabbing it. So pleased. I also talked to a customer at work about places I could get all kinds of gluten free shit he wrote down the names of the places for me. What a nice guy.

I need to do something today. I don’t know what though. I mean I don’t know anyone to go any where with. I mean I have art to work on. But, other than that when that has been done… what will I do then? I need friends….doooooooh.

A week in a year.

Well it has been a week in Calgary. Things are going well thus far. I have a job. I start on Monday, 11-7. They all seem pretty nice, cheeful. I hope it works out. And hey it would be sweet if I made some friends at this job. ‘Cause you know… friends are always nice. We have a place we are going to view on Monday. Too bad I am working during said view time so Shane has to go on his own. Which is lame. But gotta do what yah gotta do. The place is $750 a month, and its a basement suit. Should be good. The pictures make it look ok. So we will see how it goes.

I don’t have much to say really. I got my new cell number finally. I had my new laundry hamper explode in my face. Yes.. I said explode. It was a fold up thing that was held together by elastic and when I took the elastic off HOLY LORD DICK it flailed around into my face. Shane and I laughed for a good 5-10 minutes. I laughed to the point of tears. Good times.

This week feels longer than a week.

This is all I got. I am a lame person.

Yeah.