So today started off fine I suppose. Lewis woke me up at 5 this morning because he wanted into my room and then pestered me on and off. I showered and walked the dog and then it started pouring rain soon after I got back. Then my stomach felt like it was ripping its self apart. I played video games most of the day till i noticed some old OLD photo albums under the TV stand. So I started looking at them and was shocked to see they were baby pictures. I was stocked to see my brother and mines baby pictures. Then I realized.. they were all Kaylan’s. It kinda bothered me that his were out and mine weren’t. So I set out on a search, I wanted to find the other ones. It took me about an hour and they were in the last box I looked in. Tucked in a corner with shit covering them. Like the forgotten box of crap no one wanted to look at. So I brought them out to look at. My dad was so skinny and in shape back when Kaylan and I were babies. And my step Dad had a MASSIVE beard. It made me laugh very hard. But then I got later into the album a few years after I was born.. or maybe only a year. And it was odd to be able to see when my parents were in love and when they weren’t any more. I could see it in their eyes the look of just staying in the marriage because they felt obligated. The smiles had changed and everything. That almost stung to see as much as not being invited or informed of the family reunion that was held this past weekend. Like ouch guys. Am I so far out of the loop that my brother gets invited and I don’t? Merf, its shit like that that makes me think I am not welcome in the family I hardly get a damn birthday card any more.
Now I am going to deal with this bitch of a head ache and I s’pose make my dinner.
