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I hate living here. I want out now. KTHNXBAI

HEY 808

Marj called me a boy today. Well again. Shes done so before. It was rather comical, dinner was just funny. Kaylan and Adam are here so many stupid jokes were made. My dad was falling alseep at the table. Its been raining for a long time. I love it. Nice to fall asleep to at night.

My brother is renting a room in his house. $450 a month if there are any takers.

All you got

So today I wake up and go down stairs to get my laundry. I was up for like.. 10 minutes and my dad asks me (after I told him I can’t mow the lawn this weekend) to mow the lawn. It was more of a guilt trip. So I do, and after wards I shower and then Marj opens the door to the bathroom when I am brushing my teeth, I am wearing a t-shirt. This is bad. Her and Dad don’t know of the tattoo yet. She said nothing about it so I assume she didn’t see it. Close call though, I managed to talk in the most awkward positions with my arm bent behind my back.

Then on my way to my mom’s there was a delay on the road. Luckily it was only 20 minutes of sitting not an hour. I brought her Kaylan and mines baby pictures. She had to point out every picture with my face smothered in food. And the picture of me being really excited and explained to my little brother what I used to do when I was. She also told me of the dreams she had when I was little of me dying. Like the dream she had of me drowning, and one of me being burned alive. So I said my death would be epic where half of me burns and the other half drowns and sinks in water. My mom and I went to the store to get stuff for dinner and I saw my old math teacher. Oh good times were had. Apparently my brother hangs out with his kids and I was so weirded out by his daughter being… not a baby. I also saw Troy Evens. A guy I once had a massive crush on. I always find it funny when people who would never give me the time of day suddenly start to pay attention to me. Honestly I haven’t changed much. I don’t think I have any ways. Then we ate dinner, it was marvelous we had hot dogs, pop, chips and marsh mellows. We came inside and I showed the pictures of the Calgary trip. Torin is so cute. He saw the picture of Shane and I kissing and this is the conversation him and my mom had…
Torin: What are they doing?
Mom: He’s kissing her.
Torin: Oh… well .. how?
Mom: Just like a kiss. -does kiss motion-
Torin: Was it hard?
Mom: No it wasn’t Torin its a kiss.

Last night I had a dream that I lived in Shane’s basement with him, Terry, and Dan. It was odd.

Heavy

So today was ridiculous. We were being inspected today so we had to make sure there was no hair anywhere and that everything was perfect. And when Olga and I were going to clean rooms we couldn’t because no one had left yet. So we had to clean window sills, then I helped Karenjit. Whom made me sweep the side walk (and now I have blisters goody), then after coffee break Olga and I stared on our rooms. I had to finish a room on my own… which wasn’t bad because I turned the music on my phone. Then I helped Vanessa, took chemicals to a storage room and helped some lady I didn’t know. It was a busy day with a shitty sleep. I at least got to come home to an empty house. I s’pose I should make myself some dinner.

Life is dirty business

So today started off fine I suppose. Lewis woke me up at 5 this morning because he wanted into my room and then pestered me on and off. I showered and walked the dog and then it started pouring rain soon after I got back. Then my stomach felt like it was ripping its self apart. I played video games most of the day till i noticed some old OLD photo albums under the TV stand. So I started looking at them and was shocked to see they were baby pictures. I was stocked to see my brother and mines baby pictures. Then I realized.. they were all Kaylan’s. It kinda bothered me that his were out and mine weren’t. So I set out on a search, I wanted to find the other ones. It took me about an hour and they were in the last box I looked in. Tucked in a corner with shit covering them. Like the forgotten box of crap no one wanted to look at. So I brought them out to look at. My dad was so skinny and in shape back when Kaylan and I were babies. And my step Dad had a MASSIVE beard. It made me laugh very hard. But then I got later into the album a few years after I was born.. or maybe only a year. And it was odd to be able to see when my parents were in love and when they weren’t any more. I could see it in their eyes the look of just staying in the marriage because they felt obligated. The smiles had changed and everything. That almost stung to see as much as not being invited or informed of the family reunion that was held this past weekend. Like ouch guys. Am I so far out of the loop that my brother gets invited and I don’t? Merf, its shit like that that makes me think I am not welcome in the family I hardly get a damn birthday card any more.

Now I am going to deal with this bitch of a head ache and I s’pose make my dinner.

Do I hear a waltz?

Today is Dawn’s house. There should be some good times as always.

Last night I had a really funny dream and all I remember is that Shane was in it. I giggled in my sleep. Very very loudly. It woke me up I was so loud. It was the stupidest too. It was like.. ” AHEEHEEHEEHEE HEEEHEEHEEHEE!” When I woke up I was still giggling like a tool. I wish I could remember that dream. I had a different one where I was a ghost and there was some thing about Bio Shock. I swam through some glass and I got a chunk of glass in my eye it was so wtf.

So.. I got my final grades for the entire school year. I think my English mark is funny. I lawled when i saw it.

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Two Hookers and an H-bomb

Well today was an intense day of work. I cleaned 3 floors of rooms. So I was pretty much dead when I got home. I just sat here after I walked the dog and showered. I wanted to go get something down town but I didn’t want to drive. I feel so lame. I am so glad I get 2 days off now. I get to sleep in, which is needed because I can’t fall asleep and then when I do sleep its not a restful one. I don’t even think I am dreaming. I constantly wake up stupid early before my alarm and then when my alarm goes off I get terrified because I already woke up so I’m all confused. Its retarded. Then when I am at work my body’s all retarded over heating and exhausted.

I let the dog out and there were mass amounts of bugs on the door… so the second I opened it I got a lovely face full of bugs that are now flying all around the house. Its really gross. I feel gross.

Lets go to our local Snoop-ermarket

Man I was tired when I got up today. It sucked… I don’t know why I was so tired. Then again I woke up at 5:45 AM today. Like not just wake up momentarily I snapped awake. I was pissed off when I looked at my clock to see it wasn’t near 7. I got to work really early too. I work at 8:30 and I got there before 8 because the traffic was so light. Nothing interesting really happened at work, there was a fire in Mission Hill, or Mission Park. I don’t know what that area is called. Areia and I watched it for a while.

My parents are gone for the weekend. I don’t know what time they are coming home. Apparently neither do they. But I get an entire weekend of no parents I am pleased. Though they want me to walk the dog before work in the morning. HA fuck that! I am not getting up earlier to walk the damn dog. The worlds not going to end if he doesn’t get 2 walks a day.

Dumb friggen day

Ok so. Today I woke up in a freakishly good mood. It felt like I solved something last night, I cleaned my room this morning before work, at work I was pumped and ready to clean.

I donno I got home and played some video games, got mad at an acoustic, and saw my phone bill and the good mood died. I mean I can pay my bill next week.

Also one tendril of my tattoo looks sooo gross. So I bought some polysporin and band-aids( these are for work so I don’t have to wear long sleeves) maybe this will help it heal a bit cleaner. I mean ew. I can tell that spot wont have much ink, theres like a big massive gap there. On the up side. My parents are leaving tomorrow for their vacation time. This means I get to wear short sleeves around the house. Thank fucking god. I don’t like having to wear hoodies all the time when I’m not in my room. I am only planning to keep this up till Shane comes (yes honey I am sorry but they wont freak out as much if someone is here) then I will start wearing t-shirts around them again. Till then I will have to suffer. So Shane seriously the sooner the better haha.

At work we( Marlene and I) had 20 rooms (which turned into 22 because we helped someone else) and this lady came into her room looking pissed as all fucking hell while we were cleaning it. So we asked her if she wanted us to leave and come back later she said no we can keep going so we do and she left again. Then shortly after we finished her room we moved to one like 2 doors down and while I am cleaning the tub and Marlene is cleaning the living area, that lady walks into the bathroom and starts blowing her nose. I’m standing in the shower with this look of ” Why the fuck are you in here and not doing this in your own room?” sort of thing and shes just blowing away REALLY loud like and then leaves the bathroom. And I guess she went into the living area and was all confused as to where her shit was, so Marlene told her it wasn’t her room. After the lady leaves Marlene walks into the bathroom and says ” I think… that lady was on drugs. I would be embarrassed I mean she was REALLY REALLY loud!” It was rather bazaar.

Apologize.

So, being back just sucks balls. It feels so empty here and my step mom seems to be acting more bitchy than normal to me. My dad is about the same though which is fine. He was totally ok with Shane and I where as Marj.. well that wretch tried to talk me out of it. I’m sorry, I’m not that fickle. My brother and I talked about it today on the phone. He asked if we went to school with each other, and I said no we met through a friend and he asked if it was open and then upon hearing it wasn’t he asked how it was going to work and if it was worth it. I told him we would be doing a lot of visiting and it was totally worth it and he congratulated me. Then asked if I still wanted to live here. He wants me as a room mate in his new place ( an actual house still on the Westside baha) I told him I would consider it. I really am. I didn’t mind living with him and it would be a real house means I can still feel like I’m in a home and shit. Apparently its like the house I grew up in in Peachland. I want to see it so I can see if thats true.

I have been playing my Wii finally. I set it up yesterday I’m all hooked up to the net and everything. And next pay check (which will be Tuesday or Wednesday next week) I am going to get some points so I can download some Mario games. MMMMM it will be marvelous, maybe I will even buy a game seeing as the pay check can’t be too little I will be working more.

Marj has a breathing client over. That means a morning of hearing people scream, and pound on the floor. I feel bad because Kaylan phoned and I thought they were gone. So I was in my room talking and then realized they were there so I left for out side. God, the one day I get to sleep in and people are loud.  What ever. I s’pose its Marj’s thing.