Ok just because I am bored and don’t wish to do what I should be… we shall recap the year thus far. Much has happened I figure I may as well do this.
Starting from the 01/01/2008 I booted my friends out of my house after having them crash at my place so they could do their drinking thing. Then I headed to Castelgar. It was grand I suppose mind you the only people I knew were my ex and his mom. Then on the 4th Jason and I were going to my moms place. YAY CAR ACCIDENT! I got to go to the hospital and get checked out to make sure my spine was ok. First ambulance ride. It hurt more than the shock of hitting another car at 70 km/h. And there was pain from every object I lifted or move I made. I started the year off great! I even got to be forced into counselling. GLEE!
02/2008… Things didn’t look up at all. I found I failed art history miserably and CCS. I break up with my ex for the first time. I think I horrified him when i started laughing hysterically and sobbing at the same time. My brain was shutting down. I took a depression test with the counceller. I scored 34/40. If that were a test in class I would have been thrilled. But this one showed I was severely depressed. my counceller was afraid to let me drive. And made an appointment to see the nurse practitioner at the school.
03/08 So I take anti-depressants. I have to be checked every month to make sure I’m not suicidal. Jason and I break up again. I think I felt my insides tear apart this month. I actually had to stop driving because I thought I was going to swerve into other cars. I broke down on the phone with my parents and had to move back in with them. I have no money at this point. $7 was my account balance. I stopped eating for 2 days, and the rest of the time I had to force myself to eat. My dad checked my place to make sure I was eating. I couldn’t sleep very much. Like I never slept before but to sleep 4 hours and have night mares when I was sleeping? WTF!?
04/08 <3 I feel better, thank you. Soon I will get to see you. But I made my self sad by my own art to do with my thoughts. And a girl from high school passed away. R.I.P. Tristin.
Thats the year in a nut shell. >_< It needs to be the end of April now.
