Say good night and go

In my new attempt to update this more often here I am.
I have nothing new or exciting to say. Other than the fact that I am watching Twilight here. Shane is at work and therefore I have nothing(no one) to do. I still think that Twilight would have been much better if they had people that could act, or at least didn’t seem so awkward. And the jumping didn’t look so cheesy and a bit of the dialog. And yet, I still don’t mind watching it. I think its because it is so bad its like watching your self be a teenager. Its cute in its own stupid rejected sort of way. The dad makes me think of my dad. And how weird our relationship is, and how he was excited for me to live with him again all those times (even though we fought a lot and I was obscenely snippy with him).

I was asked when Shane I were getting married by someone at work.My answer to him was simple we weren’t engaged so there would be no wedding.  It was a weird moment. Aspecially when the guy said he was going to have to talk some sence into Shane. And also wondered why we hadn’t gotten on with it. I asked if he was telling me to propose. Which I had already told Shane I was leaving this one up to him. I do not want to find a male engagement ring, I don’t imagine it would be easy, nore would they be very pretty.

I also think there is a high amount of uncomfortable sexal harrassment at work. I don’t think the guy doing it means to be full on sexual about it. But its creepy and he even knows it bugs me. It even bugs other people at work. And thats sayin something. Sunny thinks the guy who is being creepy likes me. Which freaks me out. I have Shane, all I want is Shane and there will be no other than Shane. Phil is waiting for me to just fucking snap one day at work and can’t wait to see it. I am sure the day it happens it will be a stunning thing to see. Cassie left. I am now the only girl working there. I don’t think I care for it. I feel oddly alone.

I don’t know what else to write about.

Born Losers

So I wish I had more to update with. But sadly I am not interesting enough to update.

My cars starter went. And I have yet to replace it, and I am kind of weary of asking my boss. I have been told asking him for a favor comes with a price. But it is something that needs to be done. So eventually I will get her running again and clean her to sell her off to someone not needing to travel around to BC. It keeps being put into my head to get a new car. Not used. I mean they are cheap right now, so it is a good time to get a new car. And financing would be the same as a loan from the bank right now since heeyyy I am young and don’t make enough money to get a lower interest rate, which to me seems silly ” oh hey you make no money and want a loan? LETS CHARGE YOU MORE SO YOU CAN’T AFFORD THE LOAN!” I am getting off topic here. I don’t know what kind of new vehicle I would even get. Maybe a Pontiac Wave or something. I don’t want a big ass car, and I want a hatch back for Shane’s insurance. And something super easy for him to learn how to drive on. Chances are I will have to get full coverage, and because here they go by age and years driven I am going to be paying out my ass.

I got my raise at work, though you would never know seeing as it seems to not have changed the amount I make. Like the government is just taxing the difference. Also head office had made work totally un-fun. They put new rules in place, and watch us on the cameras its retarded. I am looking for a new job. A better paying job. I need to ask Trudy where to apply online where she works.

I have no kitchen. Well no I do its just upstairs for a bit seeing as the city is inspecting out place. Yup. But Nina is awesome and giving Shane and I free tattoo time for the hassle. Which I am taking advantage of at the moment. The work thus far is on Flickr.

Hmm. I think that is all I have for now. Maybe I will have something more intresting later.

April Showers…

This is a month of suck. So much suck eviction. No eviction. Shane’s Mom. Douche upstairs. No douche upstairs. Possibly another eviction? WHAT THE HELL!? April why do you suck so much. The guy that came here and said he was from “The City of Calgary” and inspected our place (meaning just the basement since there is no access to the upstairs) and said that this is technically illegal and that there have been complaints about the amount of people that live here. This makes me wonder of the James (the douche who was upstairs) maybe called the city? But anyways he said that our best bet if we liked it here was to try and get upstairs. SOOOO I think we will need to talk this out with Nina to see whats up. He also told us he will keep in touch so we know whats going on. -Sigh-

In other news I might be getting a raise YAY! I went from possibly getting fired to getting a raise. Scooore. I have also gotten the most donations for MS at work. Bwaha.

I am thinking of getting my hair done on Friday. Layers bangs and blonde streaks. I can then put my colours back in wooooo. This is all I really have.

Halo

Remember those walls I built? Well, baby they’re tumbling down. And they didn’t even put up a fight, they didn’t even make up a sound. I found a way to let you in but I never really had a doubt. Standing in the light of your halo, I got my angel now. It’s like I’ve been awakened. Every rule I had you breakin’. It’s the risk that I’m takin’.I ain’t never gonna shut you out. Everywhere I’m looking now I’m surrounded by your embrace. Baby I can see your halo, you know you’re my saving grace. You’re everything I need and more, it’s written all over your face. Baby I can feel your halo Pray it won’t fade away. I can feel your halo hit me like a ray of sun, burning through my darkest night. You’re the only one that I want. Think I’m addicted to your light. I swore I’d never fall again, but this don’t even feel like falling. Gravity can’t forget to pull me back to the ground again.

That song could not be more true. Oddly enough sung by Beyonce whom I am not a huge fan of.

In other news, I cleaned the house HURRAH. I have yet to eat, not sure what I should consume for lunch. I will go ponder this else where.

Cupcake

So I have noticed that I have started the last 3 posts in here with ” Its been a while since I updated”…. good thing I need not do that this time HA!

Though I have nothing to update with. I got sent home from work for being sick. I have had a fever all day and thats it. I might have consumed my weight in water today, and all I did was watch Scrubs.

Working Beetles

Whelp it has been a while so I figured it was time for an update.

Not too much has happened, I got yet another tattoo. Its a fish hes just so grumpy, and I named him Phill. Hes pretty awesome. I also got a DSLR, Nikon D40. The picture quality is just grand. One day I will get more lenses and stuff for it. I want a fish eye but they are $999.99 so definitely going to have to wait for that. I also want to get an easel. One for big paintings, seeing as I have all these big canvas’ and no where to paint.

I did a nice big clean up today. Mmmph. The place is looking nice. I put our hoodies and such into the laundry room. It just felt too cluttered in the living room area. So that’s all sorted out. I tried to find Shane’s SD card reader for his lap top and found his markers, he had been looking for them for a while. I also found his mighty mouse. Whilst I was searching I saw all these things hes donated to. The boy has mad giving skills and it made me realize that I haven’t really done anything for other people. I almost want to go and volunteer for the community. I also saw a picture of him that was probly a few years old. And he looked so happy. I got all misty-eyed, pretty sure it’s ’cause you don’t see genuine smiles that often out side of a baby or small child. I can safely say that was on of the most genuine I have ever seen out of him. Made me happy to see. Though I never did get to find the damn SD card reader.
I might have to make dinner tonight. Oh lordy. I am horrible with rice. And I haaate hate hate cutting chicken. But I WILL PREVAIL. Maybe. It all depends on the rice. Ooooohhohoh rice the bane of my culinary existence.
Huummm lets see what else. My boss hired another person. Which is funny since we hardly ever make budget infact the past week was the first time we made budget for a long time. He has also been saying someones going to get fired. I suspect it will be me. I really do. I don’t always sell that much  and my bay times aren’t that great (bay times are how fast we can get the car in and out of the shop.) What ever, I want a better job any ways.
I think I will get bangs. I have been having this nagging urge to get bangs again,  ‘coarse I am going to have to get them done professionally. There is no way I can do them how I want myself.
Dawn found a song on LBP sent it to me. I was stocked since its a pretty sweet song. Reminds me of an army of beetles. I now want to draw or paint a beetle army.

Good story.

This is not an umbrella.

Ok so it has been a good long time sine I updated this.

Sooo here she goes.

I retruned home from the Okanagan. Worked stayed shitty, other than today… today was pretty funny. The way things are going lately with work and us hardly making budget I think someone will get fired soon. If its me I don’t think I will be all that heart broken. I want something better, better pay, doesn’t make me smell like crap and breaks my nails I tried sooooo hard to grow. Whine whine whine.
I got a tattoo last Thursday. The thing has a personal vendetta against me. It itches in the most inconvenient times ever. There are pictures on flickr. I will also be getting one next Saturday. Its going to be a grumpy little cartoon fish. I will name him Fred.
Uhh… what else is new? Hm.. I donno.My mind seems to settle on the same topic. Its weird. My mind almost NEVER keeps going back to one thing this often. I am not in the mood to say what it is. Which makes this kind of a stupid thing to put in here but what ever.
I really have nothing to say.
Wow…
I suck at this.

From the fog

So its been a while since I updated. I suppose I should do so since tons has happened. I tired to fly to Kelowna since Wednesday January the 14th. My flights kept getting canceled while I was floating above Kelowna. I got here Saturday night, and went to Dawn’s and we had our get together. Which both Dawn and I were utterly exhausted for. It ended fairly early, I went home at around 12 and chilled in bed reading and such. Sunday Dawn and I went to the mall, I got a shirt and a belt. Josh who happens to work at Spenser’s picked me up while I was on the phone with my mom (whom told me to stop having so much fun while I was talking to her. XD) And I saw Jamie. He works in Randy River. Good times. I went to the school today. It seemed empty being with Jason and Tara. I don’t know what it was but it felt like standing in a room all alone. There was no substance to being with them. After I left them and there was like Dawn, Cam, Danny, Tyler and Becky things felt normal again. Becky and I went to see Hayley at her work and hung out with her during her lunch. Then I went to get Dawn, Cam, Gavin and Nick to go to Dawn’s house to make cake (there are pictures of that on my flickr). Danny showed up later. It has been a hectic couple of days with out sleeping properly. I hate that Shane’s not in the bed with me. Its nice knowing your not alone laying awake at night, you can always turn over and see someone there. Here its like I turn over and see a mound of breathing fur at my feet. I miss Shane. It’s only been 3 days. I am so lame.  I go to my mom’s tomorrow. She wants a family photo so we are doing that and then we will be driving down to her place. I will be getting my hair trimmed while I am there as well. I need it badly.

That’s all I have at the moment I suppose.

I drempt last night…

So I think when I go back to my mom’s I will get a hair cut. I know I want to grow out my hair… Bit the ends are dead, it take too much shampoo and conditioner and it has gotten to the point where it has no volume ’cause its so long. I don’t get it cut super short, just shoulder length or something. And maybe bangs, I dunno yet. I am also very sick of ripping out my hair when I put on my coat, put my bags down, or you know move in general.

My job doesn’t pay me enough to send me home early all the time. I only worked 3 hours today. If I made $20 an hour sure why not. But since I am not making that much at all 3 hours isn’t going to cut it. I think I need to get a job that won’t make me sleep like shit (due to dreaming about it constantly). Its also far to stressful a job. I want a desk job or something. Or something that just pays more. Blaaaahhh.

I think I have a stomach flu or something. I keep getting a tummy ache that causes me to go running towards the washroom. And not to puke. Lame. I apparently talked in my sleep more last night. ” Indeed” and ” No.”

We suck at this don’t we?

So, it seems the shop didn’t even want to be open today. The air compresser started making all these horrendous screeching sounds.. Oh man it was just ungodly. And when the manager goes to see whats up… our air compresser in lamens terms was pretty much dead. This is horrible news because everything that runs off the air compresser will nolonger work. Meaning we can’t do tire pressure, we can’t top up washer fluid, we can’t do major services (i.e. transsmition services, radiator flushes) and we can’t use our oil guns. Well WHY the fuck is the store open after this? Our most used oil is from the guns we have to top up the washer fulid unless asked not to! After 3pm I think it was we had one customer, they left after we said we couldn’t top up their washer fluid, check the tires or do a standard oil package. So for the last few hours we just sat around and talked. It was good stuff.
One of the people from head office was at the shop today. And him and Cassi took Eric, and then later on myself to the back room and went over recommendations with us. Basically they told us to recommend something for a vehicle and then told us a better way of doing it. I had a bit of anxiety doing this on the stop and there for couldn’t finish a sentence.  So they grabbed the book that explains everything and what it does and why it needs to get done. After I got to use that I was better I could spout it all off easy as pie. I am intending to get copy’s of that stuff so I can memorize it all. It will make my life so much easier. Right now I have transmission and differentials down.

I didn’t sleep well last night… from 4am on I kept waking up. I gave up and got up before my alarm. There was just no point to staying in bed. I drempt about work… oddly enough it wasn’t making me frusterated. I was just doing it all so calmly and it was so easy. And I was in a good mood. Apparently I talked in my sleep saying ” We suck at this don’t we.” It made Shane laugh though? Thats a plus. RIGHT!? I wonder what I was dreaming about that made me say that. Maybe work? I say that at work a lot. Or maybe I was dreaming about failing at sleep ’cause Shane and I suck at sleeping. Lawdy do we ever.

I keep getting sick waves. Its stupid. For like the past week I get dizzy or what ever for like 15 minutes to a halfhour. WTF BODY stop failing! Damn thing acts like it has a disease. That or I’m pregant and I am telling myself no. I wonder if I deny it enough if the fetus would just…. go away.