Shortened

I got my hair cut. No more being strangled by dry locks of hair or using up a bottle of conditioner in three weeks. Yeah, I said it… I used up a bottle in 3 weeks because my hair like… ate the shit. And now, its like I hardly need to use any conditioner. I don’t even have to brush my hair before a shower, or at all. Its pretty much all my natural colour now, save for a few left over blonde streaks. Its good stuff. The place I went to was nice and laid back. Good people and my hair dresser was nice and knew her stuff. So if your in Calgary I would highly recommend her, Megan Black at the salon Sit Still. You can see the before and after in my flickr.

Not much else to say really.

Stuff

Welp I am home.

I am super stoked to be here, I passed out a bit on the couch last night, Shane woke me up in a super nice cute way. He just touched my leg softly. Honestly, love that kid.I slept in till 9:30. That was niiiice. It feels weird that I have nothing to occupy my entire day. I tried to make a grocery list, just not happening. I can’t think of what to put on it. I only have 8 things on there, that’s it. I donno, I guess when we get there we can kinda go off of what I put down. (ok I just added three things BUT ONLY ONE IS EATABLE!)
I am getting my hair cut this week. Its gonna be lovely since its taking off all my dead hair. And not just most, all, I am going short enough that most of my hair is gonna be gone. I really wish it were easy to FIND someone to do my hair. I am also gonna get my nails done. If I get paid. I can’t do anything till I get paid.  I mean it was supposed to be today. We will see.

My heart stops every time

This last month or so I have been deep down feeling like a hopeless romantic. Its not a bad thing other than the fact that I am pretty alone these days. I am getting super anxious about seeing Shane again, I have been getting myself so worked up over love its just insanity. Like really, I must be broken.

Metaphor for a Missing Moment

I didn’t sleep last night, its not that I didn’t want to. I just couldn’t. Since I was awake I decided to read Green and Blue on Shane’s blog. I have to say, I love those stories… I have since the first time I read them and continue to love them even after several readings. I shed a tear every time I read them too. They don’t make me sad, they just fill me up with an over whelming feeling. Then I wonder about what Shane must have been thinking when writing the stories.If he wrote them about himself.  How long it took to think of them. Who inspired them. If he ever wishes things were like that in reality. (How appropriate Sort of a Protest song just came on) I think my favorite thing about Green and Blue is how innocent it is.

Lets see here, work has been fine. I am now on a switch over to days for the next two weeks, its gonna suuuck getting used to days. I have to get up around 5:30 am for 2 weeks. Lets hope my body can cope and does it with out me crashing. I am making a few friends. Too bad they are all on nights this week where I am on days. So I have to make a new set of friends. My last week out here Terry will be working the same shifts. I am kind of excited, even though we have to pretend to not know each other, I am sure it will be good times.

Despite the fact that I am talking to people now I am kind of lonely. I super miss having Shane in bed to cuddle with, hear him breathing, everything. I miss it. I hope these two weeks will fly by so I can have my week to be with him again. I can’t believe I have seen him for only a week since the 14th of December. Yeah that’s right. I have seen Shane for one week out of an entire month, month an a half by the time I am able to go home again. Oh the pining. So much.

There is a song, Orestes by A Perfect Circle, it keeps getting stuck in my head. For some reason the line Pull me into your perfect circle seems so personal. Like its a song you shouldn’t listen to with other people around, unless you care about them. I have no idea why I feel that way. Its like Truffle Pigs by Matthew Good. I always feel like I should be cuddling Shane when I hear it.

Yeah.

Take offs and Landings

Alrighty here, just gonna throw down with a quick update. I flew out to work yesterday at 5:45am so I was up at 3:45. I got to the camp around 8ish, there was a lot of sitting what with me needing to get picked up at the sign in area and get my badge and all. I was left to sleep till 6:30 when my shift started. I slept for an hour. I got off work the next day(today) at 6:30am and went to sleep at 7:30. It was great. And now I am about to head to work for another shift like this.

But for Shane here is my schedule.

Jan7-12 night shift 6:30pm-630am

Jan13-14 off

Jan15-26 day shift 630am-630pm

Break Down the Wall

Hokay, I suppose its about time to update. Lets see, I went to my moms place on the 22nd of December. Saw a bunch of my friends out there. It was wild having all of us in one place again. We haven’t all been in the same room for years! It was amazing to see where we all were now. How things have changed, for the better or worse. How ever you want to look at it. Uhh I got sick just before coming home.. it had kind of went away for a day and then came back with a vengeance(Thankfully its nearly gone now) Torin was super upset the day I was going home. He cried twice and wanted me to stay. Poor kid, I felt awful. I told him he would probably see me in the spring when he helped me move. He was happy for a few seconds and then cried again. He just knows how to tug on my heart strings. My flight home was delayed by about a half hour or so due to snow fall earlier in the day. But I got home safe and sound… and sick. Shane and his mom picked me up from the air port. Which was nice.
New years eve I was in and out of fevers, it was pretty darn ridiculous. Though we did go out and get pet food, then we went to the mall to find girl cloths for tomorrow and to get Shane his Christmas present and then we went to Best Buy. I got myself a Dell netbook. Its more beefed up than my Acer ever was. More hard drive and more memory. I spent way more than I wanted though. Later that day we went over to our friend Tara’s place, she only lives 2 doors down. So we stayed there for an hour and a half or so then just chilled out here ’cause I was too sick to do much else. I woke up the next day feeling way better, all I had was a cough. And today I hardly even have a cough. YAY!
I cleaned out the fridge yesterday, It was completely empty after all that was left was milk, creamer and condiments…. till you know we put our groceries in. Which looked like all meat since the veggies went into the crisper. I took a picture of it ’cause I thought it was silly. I cleaned up the rest of the house today. Man it felt good to see the house clean, I mean it was clean when I got home but… then you know my shit made everything messy again. I also cleaned the bunny cage which was good… since it was nasty. Though they bunnies are a bit pissed off with me for being gone so long. Man are they gonna be pissed when I am gone for 20 days >_>.
I think that’s all I have to say right now. Other than I am super excited for tomorrows pretty dinner.

Lost with out a cure

I feel sad. And I don’t know why.

BONANZA GO!

Well, I have a job out in Fort Mac. Pretty much the same as my old job other than the department and location. It pays well though so I am ok  doing it. My first stretch out there is going to be 20 days, with maybe one or two breaks. That’s a lot of work  since they are all 12 hour days. And I will have to switch from day to night in there at one point. Its going to be exhausting.

I am on my two week BC stretch. Its been crazy so far. But I am loving seeing my friends. We all played rockband for a super long time, also scrabble, and last night we went to play laser tag and see Avatar. It was a good movie, I rather enjoyed it. Pretty scenery and wicked creatures. Well done I say. I will probably go see it again with Shane, maybe in 3D then, to see how it looks.

I also hung out with the BCF kids. It was good times. We went to Kelly-O’s and then to Nick’s new place. Its a nice place, I am super jealous.

I bus out to Vancouver on Tuesday.  I will get there around 1:30pm.

I don’t have a lot to say…

Circuit Boards and Paint Bushes

Man a lot happened this weekend. My last day of work at Maxxam, I didn’t want to do any samples. I had actually had a plan to do none. I ended up doing the most sitting at 65 samples for the day. I am sure I could have tone more if I had really tried but, I wasn’t in the mood to. I just wanted those out of the way so Dennis wouldn’t have to deal with them on Saturday. I also ended up taking a super long lunch break. It was nearly 2 hours. WOOPS!

I then started getting my selling art thing under way over the weekend. It was going great. And then Terry calls up offering me a job in Fort Mac. I can turn that down. Its $20 an hour. I just have to be there 2 weeks of the month. More if they need over time, which maybe when I get used to being away from home I might do. I would be making a shit tone of money. I just hope I have the internet out there…. and my own space. I am interested to see what the facilities are like. I have been told nothing. Maybe when I am being trained, or when I talk to Terry next. I think he stays at a hotel. Any ways. I am going to do both art and this job. If I can make a few extra bucks that would be a good thing. I want to save up for a Macbook now, and a tv. I could use a laptop or computer that doesn’t crash every two seconds.

I am super excited to go to BC. Super excited. I am ready to chillax with my bros from BC. So ready. And to have cuddly dogs and cats to love. CRAP I am getting myself too excited here. I am just so ready for this. Sad Shane can’t come, but excited none he less.

I am not sure what else to say here… so… yeah.

Darwinism:For people who like monkies

Welp times they are a-changin’. Yup. I will soon be jobless. I am being laid off. I was convinced it wouldn’t happen till end of December. It was such a shock to us all. And a huge piss off. I mean we all worked our asses off to try and keep that job. Apparently that wasn’t enough. It kinda makes me wish I hadn’t worked so hard it seems like it was all for nothing.  But this means a month an a half break from work and going on EI. I would get another job but then I wouldn’t get my time off to go see my family and friends. And its been about a year. Torin keeps asking me when I am going to come see him. Its breaking my head. BREAKING MY OLD MAN HEART! I also miss Dawn way too much. How I long to sing ” No Air” with her and do slam poetry to song making them sound like bad Captain Kirk impressions.

I am a bit excited to have all this time to work on art. Its been so long since I have had real time to do it. I mean a few hours here and there feels like a rip off. And a serious waste of paint. I am thinking of taking Dawn’s advice and doing a series of robot paintings. He is ever so popular. I might also fix up my old painting(the guitar one) from University, reattach the stings to the guitar and fix the paint. That jazz. I may even white out the old Keremeos painting and do something over that. Something better. I will have to get more primer for that though. Micheal’s trip? A cheap one?

I am by the way going to be selling my paintings. I am thinking of making a Facebook page for them all with prices… or starting prices if shit gets competitive. I have no idea how to price my art. Might need help with that. I need to make money but I don’t want to grossly over charge. I mean my art is ok but its not like amazing or anything.

I hate it when I am asked “What are you doing for your birthday?” The answer will always be nothing. I hardly do anything for my birthday because well… who cares? Its just a day. No one is around… hell my family hardly sends cards any more. This sounds much sadder than I meant it to. Oopsy-daisy. In any case, I will probably sitting home alone. I assume Shane will be working and this I will curl up with a movie and mayhaps so tea or hell even spiked hot chocolate. If I wanted to get super spunky I would make cup cakes. But my flight leaves the next day so I probably wont. Maybe I will get sticky rice with red bean paste treats from the T&T Market…. and soup. They have some gooood soup. Maybe I will get some tomorrow for my last days of work? Nom nom nom now its all I will think about.

I will finish cleaning tomorrow. I made good head way today. Kitchen and bathroom got done. I will do the stair way, bedroom, living room and the rest of the laundry tomorrow. And what ever dishes there are I guess. Its going to be a laaammme day. I will watch movies thats’ for sure. If its warm.. maybe go and do poi. I haven’t done my poi in so long.  And I found that Kaylan’s music will more than likely work well with it. I think I may bring my poi with me to BC. And when I go down to my moms I can show them what it is. Torin will probably want to try even though he is too little for them. I could probably do some make shift ones out of socks for him. They won’t hurt him as much…. I hope.

Any who I am sure I have rambled on a bit too much. I will leave you with this last thing.

When body builders become old… it looks like a deflated messed up balloon. I mean just look at that chest. What is going on there… it reminds me of those hairless cats expect they have a bit of fur or something. Why didn’t he keep waxing? I wonder if the skin stretched too much when they tried doing so… gross.